wandering in wonder

sharing, on a pilgrims journey

the winner takes it all

The temptation to react to other people can be so strong.

I am most myself when I decide to be who I am, regardless of how other people decide to be.

so when someone is mean to me, unkind, tells lies, I still decide to be who I am.

So I responded calmly. 

I do not raise my voice when they shout and wave their arms around. It’s not my way.

I challenged the lie. I state that I found a particular thing unkind.

But I don’t ‘get even’.

or maybe I do? because maybe getting even, or even winning, is not letting that person control who I am, how I behave, or who I become.

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September 1, 2008 Posted by | 'Being', balance, Challenge, courage, Hold on, Life, Never give up, People, tough times, voice of hope | , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

all you need is love?

I think maybe it’s true – all you need to get through is love… love that helps us to think of the other person’s view when we’re annoyed with them; love that makes us try to take account of other people’s needs; love that gives us strength to keep going when we feel like chucking it all in; love that makes us share so everyone has enough and no-one is isolated or hurt.

Why is it worth going on?

because being loved – deeply loved and known and understood – by God transforms everything… and when God blesses us with people who just ‘get’ us, love us, try to see our point of view even when we’re being annoying… that’s icing on the cake. and if we’ve even had a glimpse of that good stuff, it’s worth plodding on.

maybe it’s just too easy to write about love? despite a fair bit of crappy stuff going on in some aspects of life at the mo, I’m aware of being overblessed… there’s always the cake… and at the moment, there’s even icing on it! 

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July 8, 2008 Posted by | 'Being', acceptance, Comfort, courage, Friends, Hold on, Joy, Life, Never give up, tough times, voice of hope | , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

new life in old twigs

i literally jumped for joy when i saw that the tree outside my window was starting to leaf and showing tiny signs of blossom!

i love this time of the year when things are ‘coming alive’ or ‘waking’ again. it’s wonderful… and nature’s parable re-enacted: that the cold barren days, the waiting in darkness, the dry brittle twigs weren’t really signs of all-is-lost, but of things waiting for their time (their ‘kairos’).

this is the kind of thing i meant before (over easter) when i wrote about death and resurrection – the experiences in the ‘here and now’ which feel like endings and loss, the cold/lonely/barren times that feel like wasted time, that are sometimes actually just the gateway to something new. not always what we expected, or what we think we’d want, but somehow blessings of new life.  

April 26, 2008 Posted by | Advent, Beauty, Easter, Hold on, Joy, Life, Nature, Never give up, Resurrection, Surprise, timing, tough times, voice of hope, waiting | , , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

hold on for the light…

                                                              

“yes, I can see a light that is coming, for the heart that holds on,  

and there will be an end to these troubles, but until that day comes,

still i will praise you, still i will praise you…”

                                                            (Matt and Beth Redman) 

                                                   

April 24, 2008 Posted by | Comfort, courage, Life, Light, Nature, Rescue, timing, tough times, Trust, voice of hope, waiting | , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

voice of hope – soak this in

I’ve rediscovered this song lately – I’ve downloaded it and am playing it rather a lot! and I’ve put the words up where i see them a lot at home…

As high as the heavens
Are above the earth
So high are your ways to mine
Ways so perfect they never fail me
I know you are good all the time

And through the storm
Yet I will praise you
Despite it all
Yet I will sing
Through good and bad
Yet I will worship
For you remain the same
King of kings 

You are the voice of hope
The anchor of my soul
Where there seems to be no way
You make it possible
You are the prince of peace
Amidst adversity
My lips will shout for joy
To you the most high 

You were the one
Before time began
There’s nothing beyond your controll
My confidence
My assurence rest in your unchanging world

And through the storm
Yet I will praise you
Despite it all
Yet I will sing
Through good and bad
Yet I will worship
For you remain the same
King of kings 

You are the voice of hope
The anchor of my soul
Where there seems to be no way
You make it possible
You are the prince of peace
Amidst adversity
My lips will shout for joy
To you the most high

– Lara Martin
Here’s a youtube link for it – have a listen yourself if you like… :0)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qbk1TGe5k0Q

April 14, 2008 Posted by | Beauty, courage, Joy, Life, timing, tough times | Leave a comment

walking together

                                         walking together. copyright image.

April 2, 2008 Posted by | Art, Emmaus, People, tough times | Leave a comment

blessed horribleness

I had to go to a horrible meeting this morning.

I got brave. (ready for this bravery?!)

I sent some texts and an email to friends who i know that if i asked, will pray – not the sort who only talk about it – people who will actually pray.

as i went in to the meeting, i felt so supported. and realised that although it was hard for me to ask (i hate to need to….), i realised too that this is what it’s all about – communion of saints, fellowship, support, family, body of Christ – look at it how you will – but it made all the difference today.

and the rest of the day – which could have been a bleak attempt at recovery – was almost overwhelming supportiveness of calls and texts and care.

how much i’d have missed if i’d stuck to my ‘i must be okay’, self-sufficient little ways.

perhaps i’m growing!

April 2, 2008 Posted by | balance, Challenge, courage, Light, Light up my life, People, Surprise, tough times | Leave a comment

enough said?

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March 20, 2008 Posted by | Challenge, courage, Lent, Rescue, timing, tough times | Leave a comment

the naked soul of God

 A poem by William Stidger:

                           I saw God bare his soul one day

                           where all the earth might see

                           the stark and naked soul of him

                           on lonely Calvary.  

There was a crimson sky of blood

and overhead a storm;

when lightning slit the clouds 

and light engulfed his form. 

                           Beyond the storm a rainbow lent

                           a light to every clod

                           for on that cross mine eyes beheld

                           the naked soul of God.   

…a comment adapted from Tim Zingale’s Good Friday sermon, part 2, on suite 101.com:

….From the naked soul of God comes the greatest act of love humankind has ever experienced. For the power of God was shown not in glory, or power, or fame, or strength, or prosperity, or security, or wealth, or success, but in the bare soul of God hung on a cross that endured the pain, the brokenness, the humility, the reality of this world.

(areas changed in italics)

March 20, 2008 Posted by | Challenge, courage, Lent, Rescue, tough times | Leave a comment

unfortunate?

I crashed my car today. Morally, it wasn’t my fault (someone else’s driving led to my having to slam on brakes whilst travelling downhill on a wet road); legally – apparently entirely my fault.

So being advised they’d most likely write my car off (it’s old but well cared for), I’ve been talking to insurance companies, then cancelling their input, visiting the garage, waiting for quotes, and had to change my plans to travel long-distance today.

I have a friend who believes ‘everything happens for a reason’ and when our lives are submitted to God, she says every little detail is ordered. She’d say that today’s accident may have been an Angel saving me from a worse accident on the long-distance journey I would otherwise have taken.

I’m not sure what i think on that. Was it just unfortunate, a mistake (costly to me! – money that could have found better use for God surely?  (I’m still awaiting the quote….aagh!) and I’m in some pain). Or was it a providential saving from something worse?

Was it an accident or a rescue?

 what do you think?…  

March 11, 2008 Posted by | Accident, Rescue, timing, tough times | Leave a comment