wandering in wonder

sharing, on a pilgrims journey

smell the roses…

Generally, in every day life, I’m pretty darned good at ‘smelling the roses’ – I notice little beauties of life and even literally stop to smell the roses when I’m walking through a neighbourhood and plants overhang the pavement/walkway.

What i’m being reminded of just recently is that I need to do that in my whole life too.

I have things i want to happen in my life – and i get impatient. I try not to ‘go on’ to God, but I kind of end up being just a tad repetitive in my requests (sorry God!).

What’s so easy to miss though, is the love and blessedness in my life now.

To be looking forward impatiently to a future i dream of, and miss the fact that my life right now (though not untouched by pains) is actually blessed beyond my imaginings. In fact, I’m ridiculously over-blessed.

For my future hopes, I have felt God tell me so many times, ‘It’s all in hand’, yet I find it so hard to ‘leave it there’ and get on with today.

 

                                          

rose in my garden - lean in and breathe in - you may just smell it!

I want to be better at ‘smelling the roses’ in my friendships, enjoy and savour every moment of joy that comes my way, to abandon myself to God in the ‘now’, to learn the lessons God is teaching me directly and through my amazing, beautiful friendships right now.

I mustn’t waste the lessons of now, or miss the fun of now, by only waiting impatiently for hoped-for future joys.

 

June 10, 2008 Posted by | Beauty, Challenge, Garden, Hold on, Joy, Life, Nature, Never give up, People, timing, Trust, waiting | , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Grey waters

Someone wonderful recently introduced me to R.S. Thomas… here’s one of his poems that I already love! (thanks SL!)

Sea-Watching

 

Grey waters, vast 

                        as an area of prayer

that one enters. Daily

                      over a period of years

I have let my eye rest on them.

Was I waiting for something?

                                          Nothing

but that continuous waving

                             that is without meaning

occurred.

              Ah, but a rare bird is

rare. It is when one is not looking

at times one is not there

                                  that it comes.

You must wear your eyes out

as others their knees.

               I became the hermit

of the rocks, habited with the wind

and the mist. There were days,

so beautiful the emptiness

it might have filled,

                          its absence

was as its presence; not to be told

any more, so single my mind

after its long fast,

                          my watching from praying.

– R.S. Thomas

in Laboratories of the Spirit, 1975 

May 20, 2008 Posted by | beach, Beauty, Hold on, Nature, Poem, R.S. Thomas, seaside, timing, Trust, waiting | , , , , , | Leave a comment

weeds?!

of all the lovely things in the garden, I confess I have quite a soft spot for some of the alleged weeds…

     

Eleanor Blakely Dickinson’s poem, ‘Forget me not’ ends with these words:

….Like thoughts of home in climes afar;
Like evening’s still returning star;
Like tears which fall when the heart is sad,
Almost as sweet as that heart were glad;
Like friendship found where we sought it not;
In bower and garden, in field and grot,
Spring thy fair flowers, Forget me not.

 

It’s not an original thought to wonder who decides which things are weeds, and who decides what ‘the right place’ for them to grow is anyway… maybe something beautiful always finds itself in the right place?

 

May 2, 2008 Posted by | Beauty, Garden, Joy, Life, Nature, Poem, special, timing, weeds | , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

new life in old twigs

i literally jumped for joy when i saw that the tree outside my window was starting to leaf and showing tiny signs of blossom!

i love this time of the year when things are ‘coming alive’ or ‘waking’ again. it’s wonderful… and nature’s parable re-enacted: that the cold barren days, the waiting in darkness, the dry brittle twigs weren’t really signs of all-is-lost, but of things waiting for their time (their ‘kairos’).

this is the kind of thing i meant before (over easter) when i wrote about death and resurrection – the experiences in the ‘here and now’ which feel like endings and loss, the cold/lonely/barren times that feel like wasted time, that are sometimes actually just the gateway to something new. not always what we expected, or what we think we’d want, but somehow blessings of new life.  

April 26, 2008 Posted by | Advent, Beauty, Easter, Hold on, Joy, Life, Nature, Never give up, Resurrection, Surprise, timing, tough times, voice of hope, waiting | , , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

hold on for the light…

                                                              

“yes, I can see a light that is coming, for the heart that holds on,  

and there will be an end to these troubles, but until that day comes,

still i will praise you, still i will praise you…”

                                                            (Matt and Beth Redman) 

                                                   

April 24, 2008 Posted by | Comfort, courage, Life, Light, Nature, Rescue, timing, tough times, Trust, voice of hope, waiting | , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

voice of hope – soak this in

I’ve rediscovered this song lately – I’ve downloaded it and am playing it rather a lot! and I’ve put the words up where i see them a lot at home…

As high as the heavens
Are above the earth
So high are your ways to mine
Ways so perfect they never fail me
I know you are good all the time

And through the storm
Yet I will praise you
Despite it all
Yet I will sing
Through good and bad
Yet I will worship
For you remain the same
King of kings 

You are the voice of hope
The anchor of my soul
Where there seems to be no way
You make it possible
You are the prince of peace
Amidst adversity
My lips will shout for joy
To you the most high 

You were the one
Before time began
There’s nothing beyond your controll
My confidence
My assurence rest in your unchanging world

And through the storm
Yet I will praise you
Despite it all
Yet I will sing
Through good and bad
Yet I will worship
For you remain the same
King of kings 

You are the voice of hope
The anchor of my soul
Where there seems to be no way
You make it possible
You are the prince of peace
Amidst adversity
My lips will shout for joy
To you the most high

– Lara Martin
Here’s a youtube link for it – have a listen yourself if you like… :0)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qbk1TGe5k0Q

April 14, 2008 Posted by | Beauty, courage, Joy, Life, timing, tough times | Leave a comment

coming day

                                There will come a day

                      when even with unanswered questions

                                 and unsolved mysteries

                                         we will rest            

                                            content

              – not because tidy solutions have arisen

                                         but because

                                  we will learn to rest

                                          secure

                                         peaceful

                                    in who we are,

                                    in who God is.

                                walkies.jpg

April 1, 2008 Posted by | content, Life, Peace, People, questions, timing | Leave a comment

you light up my life – Emmaus

it’s a surprising thing (and was the topic of one of my first posts!) that people can show so much of God’s light to us – sometimes things are dark and shadowed and we become accustomed to it, accustomed to coping, being ‘strong’, ‘managing’ – like getting used to seeing in the dark – and then we meet someone, or someone says something, and it’s like a light is switched on. we suddenly see in colour again.

It reminds me of the two who met Jesus on the Emmaus road – they’d given up hope, absorbed in discussions around their grief, and didn’t realise Jesus was with them… then suddenly…

I pray today I’ll recognise when Christ meets with me in other people… and if I realise in time, I’ll thank them for being people who ‘light up my life’… who bring me, expected or unexpected, the light of Christ.

March 30, 2008 Posted by | Beauty, Easter, Emmaus, Joy, Life, Light, Light up my life, People, timing | Leave a comment

Resurrection question

resurrection – do we want it?

it’s only possible after death.

do i want to have to let things go, even experience grief, in order to somehow experience new life, risen-ness?

am I too attached to the order of things to let go enough, to let a new life come?  

am I really prepared to live through a ‘Lent-time’ or even a ‘crucifixion-time’ in my life, to make room for ‘resurrection’?

March 25, 2008 Posted by | Easter, Lent, Life, Resurrection, timing | 2 Comments

Easter poem

i thank You God for most this amazing day
By e e cummings

i thank You God for most this amazing day:for the leaping greenly spirits of trees
and a blue true dream of sky;and for everything
which is natural which is infinite which is yes

(i who have died am alive again today,
and this is the sun’s birthday;this is the birth
day of life and love and wings:and of the gay
great happening illimitably earth)

how should tasting touching hearing seeing
breathing any-lifted from the no
of all nothing-human merely being
doubt unimaginably You?

(now the ears of my ears awake and
now the eyes of my eyes are opened)

March 24, 2008 Posted by | Easter, Joy, Lent, Life, Nature, timing | 2 Comments