wandering in wonder

sharing, on a pilgrims journey

winners…a little quote from ‘Ally McBeal’

Greg Germann (’Richard Fish’)


 “Life’s just a stupid game. It doesn’t matter what you do or what you have. If you’re loved in the end, then you win.”

– Richard Fish, Ally McBeal, series 1, episode 6.

not sure I agree it’s a stupid game, but I think i like his meaning…

March 31, 2008 Posted by | Ally McBeal, Life, People | Leave a comment

you light up my life – Emmaus

it’s a surprising thing (and was the topic of one of my first posts!) that people can show so much of God’s light to us – sometimes things are dark and shadowed and we become accustomed to it, accustomed to coping, being ‘strong’, ‘managing’ – like getting used to seeing in the dark – and then we meet someone, or someone says something, and it’s like a light is switched on. we suddenly see in colour again.

It reminds me of the two who met Jesus on the Emmaus road – they’d given up hope, absorbed in discussions around their grief, and didn’t realise Jesus was with them… then suddenly…

I pray today I’ll recognise when Christ meets with me in other people… and if I realise in time, I’ll thank them for being people who ‘light up my life’… who bring me, expected or unexpected, the light of Christ.

March 30, 2008 Posted by | Beauty, Easter, Emmaus, Joy, Life, Light, Light up my life, People, timing | Leave a comment

Resurrection question

resurrection – do we want it?

it’s only possible after death.

do i want to have to let things go, even experience grief, in order to somehow experience new life, risen-ness?

am I too attached to the order of things to let go enough, to let a new life come?  

am I really prepared to live through a ‘Lent-time’ or even a ‘crucifixion-time’ in my life, to make room for ‘resurrection’?

March 25, 2008 Posted by | Easter, Lent, Life, Resurrection, timing | 2 Comments

Easter poem

i thank You God for most this amazing day
By e e cummings

i thank You God for most this amazing day:for the leaping greenly spirits of trees
and a blue true dream of sky;and for everything
which is natural which is infinite which is yes

(i who have died am alive again today,
and this is the sun’s birthday;this is the birth
day of life and love and wings:and of the gay
great happening illimitably earth)

how should tasting touching hearing seeing
breathing any-lifted from the no
of all nothing-human merely being
doubt unimaginably You?

(now the ears of my ears awake and
now the eyes of my eyes are opened)

March 24, 2008 Posted by | Easter, Joy, Lent, Life, Nature, timing | 2 Comments

enough said?


March 20, 2008 Posted by | Challenge, courage, Lent, Rescue, timing, tough times | Leave a comment

the naked soul of God

 A poem by William Stidger:

                           I saw God bare his soul one day

                           where all the earth might see

                           the stark and naked soul of him

                           on lonely Calvary.  

There was a crimson sky of blood

and overhead a storm;

when lightning slit the clouds 

and light engulfed his form. 

                           Beyond the storm a rainbow lent

                           a light to every clod

                           for on that cross mine eyes beheld

                           the naked soul of God.   

…a comment adapted from Tim Zingale’s Good Friday sermon, part 2, on suite 101.com:

….From the naked soul of God comes the greatest act of love humankind has ever experienced. For the power of God was shown not in glory, or power, or fame, or strength, or prosperity, or security, or wealth, or success, but in the bare soul of God hung on a cross that endured the pain, the brokenness, the humility, the reality of this world.

(areas changed in italics)

March 20, 2008 Posted by | Challenge, courage, Lent, Rescue, tough times | Leave a comment

blue fish?

Amena Brown, poet

found these really cool video clips (and bought several!).

If you have 2 minutes 32 seconds to spare, have a squiz at this: 


March 19, 2008 Posted by | Amena Brown, Beauty, Bluefishtv, Challenge, Lent | Leave a comment

arty day


Went to some of my fave London haunts yesterday, and included a visit to the National Portrait Gallery (NPG).

I like this quote on the wall at the exhibition, ‘Brilliant Women’:

“Brilliant in diamonds, solid in judgement, critical in talk”

– Hester Thrale on Elisabeth Montague, 1781.

We also looked at the general portraits, including some of the famous Andy Warhol prints of e.g. the Queen, Elisabeth Taylor, and saw a couple of pieces that we just couldn’t believe could make it into a public gallery!

It’s always an interesting (unanswerable?!) question as to what makes something art… and then looking as to what makes it valuable – there are a whole other load of issues there.

I have some corny thoughts – stuff around how thankful I am that God doesn’t judge my worth by how much money he can make from prints and postcards of the image, or how popular I am, or whether I somehow play some crucial part in the development of someone else’s art – to God I (we all) have intrinsic worth.

Probably it takes a lifetime to understand both what that really means, and the gravity of it and how life changing it would be to understand that we’re truly and properly loved: that our gifts and graces are appreciated, but they’re not the reason we’re loved by God. God loves us because… God does.

Stunning stuff.

More stunning even than a walk around my fave galleries!



(pic. is the navigation bar from the NPG site)

March 16, 2008 Posted by | Art, Beauty, NPG | Leave a comment


I crashed my car today. Morally, it wasn’t my fault (someone else’s driving led to my having to slam on brakes whilst travelling downhill on a wet road); legally – apparently entirely my fault.

So being advised they’d most likely write my car off (it’s old but well cared for), I’ve been talking to insurance companies, then cancelling their input, visiting the garage, waiting for quotes, and had to change my plans to travel long-distance today.

I have a friend who believes ‘everything happens for a reason’ and when our lives are submitted to God, she says every little detail is ordered. She’d say that today’s accident may have been an Angel saving me from a worse accident on the long-distance journey I would otherwise have taken.

I’m not sure what i think on that. Was it just unfortunate, a mistake (costly to me! – money that could have found better use for God surely?  (I’m still awaiting the quote….aagh!) and I’m in some pain). Or was it a providential saving from something worse?

Was it an accident or a rescue?

 what do you think?…  

March 11, 2008 Posted by | Accident, Rescue, timing, tough times | Leave a comment

Augustine’s advice

trust the past to the mercy of God,

the present to his love,

the future to his providence.

 St. Augustine

March 11, 2008 Posted by | Augustine, timing | Leave a comment